Friday, January 25, 2013

Stuck in the dark...NIGREDO

Many who are remaining in their dark and stuck patterns and have forgotten why they came to earth. They sometimes cannot and will not wake up to clean up their addictions. They keep making the same mistakes over and over again like a broken record that keeps repeating the same phrase.  The phrase then becomes their accepted form of belief and then they torture themselves with the constant wondering of why is it happening to them..? 

They may be in too deeply,  involved with dark circles of people who are constantly wreaking havoc and chaos in their own circles through the negative ego and are contributing to a world of misery and pain by perpetuating dark actions that cause suffering to others.
Instead of facing themselves, they go into hiding literally and figuratively..... I know, I myself have clawed my way out of my own self imposed abysmal prison of my soul. I choose to hide and die within rather than cause anymore hurt to others. I know this place well, it is part of  an alchemical soul process called, Nigredo.

Nigredo signifies the difficulties man has to overcome on his journey through the underworld. Nigredo is sometimes called ‘blacker than the blackest black’. It is a a state in which a problem is given full attention and reduced to its core.  This is not done so much in an intellectual way, but especially by feeling the emotions. By really going into to it, one causes putrefaction, the decomposition of that in which one had been stuck. The confrontation with the inner reality is often painful, and can lead to depression. 

So many rather than diving head first into the abyss, hide from the process, developing addictions such as shopping, smoking, drugs, sex, alcohol anything and everything to escape facing one's self.  Making the decision to clean up inner issues  and turn towards the light or continue down the same dark and negative patterns towards the absence of light is always respected.  This is a universe of inclusion not exclusion in such a way that our reality really does depend on our own individual choice.

In other words, making the choice to keep the lower self bound and limited is a matter of free will.  The choice of staying in the dark will only result in immense suffering through broken heartedness, loss of money and finances, shattered  promises, any form of deception one can think of. Nothing can change this scenario until the one in the Dark realizes the futility of what they have chosen or realizes the lessons learned in the Dark and consciously makes a choice to be in Light.

Perhaps one my greatest source of real physical pain, what I call heart-ache stems from my over-whelming desire to want to rescue someone from this horrible place.  I see my reflection in each and every person I meet.  My love for people clouds my judgement. My pain stems from knowing the futility of this act, from knowingly causing more damage than good.  There comes a point when no matter what we try to do to convince someone to hear us, we must accept that our words are falling on deaf ears.   Despite my deep longing to want to help, carry whoever I can on my back, we can not rescue someone from this place.  This is a choice an individual must make on his or her own.  

As light-warriors and light-workers, way-showers, Master Teachers, Angelic Messengers, we  must always strive to embody this free will principal.   Our job is to serve as an example and teach others how to free themselves. We were never meant to be a crutch or a messiah of sorts. We know this from experience as clearly every other attempt in the past has failed miserably.  Because as we all know even time and personal interpretation has a way of changing history into something it was never meant to be.

So here we must stand, staunch defenders of the light, showing all who come near just what the light of ones own soul can accomplish.  The light serves as the polar opposite of the initial downward spiral.  All we can ever hope for is that the in your face display of contrasting energy, will spawn the desire to walk towards the light.

In loving service to all...I AM THE HIDDEN ONE.....

1 comment:

  1. Obstacles in Our Path a short story...

    In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock.

    Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the king for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.

    Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded.

    After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the king indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand. Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.

    What gold is behind your own rocks?