I had to expand my own awareness of myself, of my self worth, I had to remove the pain I refused to face. I had to forgive myself from every angle including the ones I didn't recognize. I had to dive deep into the perceived darkness forgive and appreciate all of it.
There was no other way around it. No other way to remove the shadow except to walk through it to the other side.
Step one. Dive deep into yourself and pull out all the nasty memories. Every thing you swore youd never forgive. Every childhood piece of garbage fear, memories of being bullied or made fun of. Go deeper remember your birth and being left behind. Go towards old boyfriends old wounds whatever. The key is Find the pattern that is preventing you from falling in love with your whole self.
As hard as it is to believe life is not that hard. But you see we are always on the receiving end of our thoughts and these thoughts manifest on the screen of time and space for you to see what is going on inside your self.
So it is necessary to dig deep, ill be honest most memories having been playing since before we became conscious of being in the now moment. This means we have ancestral lives that become part of your reflection. The part you are not consciously aware of despite their current now existence. They form a shadow and this shadow takes on a life of its own. It taints everyone we see. It changes the patterns in our brain into survival mode. And drops our frequency. This actually changes the outcome in which we exist so we must get rid of every wound. Let it go. You will know you are healed when you are none reactionary to the old memories. This releases us from any perceived hardship whichever way it manifest
Issues with family, work/finances, loss. This untethering process must be complete or we can not see our reflection properly.
After you have a good cry and review your past to remove all wounds for healing. The fun begins.
It leads to self love, self care regimens that begin and end with mind body spirit. You pamper yourself, you invest in yourself, you learn some new skills. And you become the man you want to fall in love with in mind body and spirit. You fall madly in love with everything you are including everything we refused to face for fear of Pain and suffering. You look in that mirror and you smile and you see your beauty you understand that without the pain you couldn't define yourself. Because these are the aspects of yourself from which you chose to deviate from gods will of heaven on earth. So we chose to imagine our existence in as the opposite of God's will. That shadow is called the ego and it quite literally helps us perceive the material universe.
Now our job is simple its come back home. Back into the place where we always existed
The place in which we see how in reality everything is actually made with love.
And you take in that reflection and fall in love with that too.
I mean when I say head over heals crazy in love. That's when he will appear. Our awareness expands and we see visibly how we can exist in two places at once.
We recognuze our reflection because it is transparent. It's hard to explain but best way to describe it would be when the inner light reflects back our inner male. The light clashes becomes one and well in my case he was just transparent. Like I had already been every other person he has ever known
When his light merged with mine I could see how he too had been everyone I had ever known. You see we met in the middle at the zero point where it was the first time I understood the magnitude of the love required to understand the beautiful face of God inside everyone at once. How do I explain, I could just see, I could finally see beyond my self.
Love is all there is the rest is an illusion that I could not understand until I got rid of my old wounds.
