Thursday, February 28, 2013

The Dance....

Compelled by the inevitable dance of a spiritual unity we find ourselves locked within a tug of war of balancing polarities. 

I came to restore you but it is you who is saving me from my own egoistical desire to control all things around me.
I willingly relinquish all control, turn my hands up and let all my fears go. 

Releasing all struggles to God, I lose myself within the comforts of your loving embrace. 

Locked within the peaceful stillness of your gaze lies the reflection of my very own soul.

I see through you, to the very essence of your being and I realize that I have finally found my home..

Saturday, February 23, 2013

The Hopi legend of the Red and Blue Kachina..A Divine Twin Love Story

The Red Kachina starseed incarnate.... is not going to be man, well that's what he is in spirit, but he will be a woman - The Blue Kachina will also have reverse polarity.. a woman on the inside, but a man outside -  I guess the question to really ask why??? - because both will come at a time, when the world has come out of balance - they would have to take opposite roles, to level it back into place. The divine polar opposites... ascended cosmic father/mother twin souls.

The Blue Kachina starseed will come first..with a spirit of woman, but the body of man,  he will appear very feminine spiritually - empowered with masculine energy, she will expand and multiply love everywhere. She will heal many by the power of her voice, she will not only unite all humans - she will heal and bring the original teachings for she is an extremely powerful maternal force.   She does  all of these things just to show her twin flame.. that love still exists here on earth..

The Blue Kachina has lived on earth too long the strength of her love draws opposing forces towards her.  She desperately needs to prove that love still exists.. teach respect of the cosmos,  mother earth and all it's creatures.   The Blue Kachina will be found in a state of weakness,  knowing that the being is a cosmic mother, she cannot create the offense she needs.. only magnify the defensive powers she houses within -   So in time these dark forces will just about overpower the Blue Kachina and that is what will draw the Red Kachina out of his celestial home.

Resolved to incarnate together,  he will leave no stone unturned to find her and bring mother earth back into balance.  He will  come to destroy and transmute these attacking forces, purify and restore the Blue Kachina back to her natural state of Divinity. When the Red Kachina comes and they both reunite - she will come dressed in full warrior armor, prepared to lead a army of men out of the darkness.  

Strange as the role reversals sound,  it is done to re-balance the earth.. To teach everyone that their divine compliment is found in their opposing polarity.... to achieve balance - the masculine energy must magnify the feminine one.   This is the state of real divine unconditional  and balanced love - the feminine energy controls and grounds the masculine one.  Their Union provides a great service to all of humanity because it is this union that will return the earth to its natural state of balance.   The Twin souls will transcend the energies of duality, they help all others do the same.  Both will be great leaders of the collective universal mind,  As one unified force of creation...

This story is the modified version of the Hopi Red and Blue Star Kachina legend.... for I  am female incarnate and male warrior in spirit.  I have found the Male incarnate and divine maternal female spirit, lost in darkness,  although her spirit is strong it has been weakened by the lack of light.   Her own native American blood may be the only remnants of the legend that lives in her heart.  She loves nature, and all of its creatures.  Her eyes light up when she speaks of camping, fishing, watches anything to do with nature, wildlife and even enjoys hiking.  The camping gear long since stored and lost to the darkness of vices and coping mechanisms she employs as defense.  She hides behind a charming male exterior, docile and volatile in nature...for the attacks have been many and she has grown accustomed to defending herself. 

She currently enjoys the power she exudes over unsuspecting women that draw naturally towards her soul and merge so willingly with his physical body.   She has been hurt badly and and has made all others pay for it by not letting anyone in any further than is comfortable before dismissing them.  This is something I understand all too well, for I myself enjoyed reducing the same unsuspecting males into a adoring and obedient puppy dogs.  They passed the time well enough but they never got anywhere near my heart for it has always belonged to the Blue Star Kachina.  I have always known that I had to find her.  I searched for her and rejected every man that was not her because, only he can be my reversed polarized equal.

I came in prepared to defend and break anything in her path for my instincts were to protect and restore her at all costs.   I provide the offense she so desperately needed.   Her enemies became my enemies.  Either they adjusted to the light I came in blazing with or they got out of the way.  My early battles in this life have served as practice for the great task ahead.   She instinctively knew how to restore my own heart back to balance with a sweet and trusting maternal force that nearly over powered my own dominant paternal one.     Although I stand by her side prepared to defend and shield her, she must first find balance within herself just as I myself was allowed to have.

You see this isn't a story of great passionate romance like most people think of.  I suppose it could be one day but first and foremost, this is a story about restoration, kindness, the greatest love I have ever experienced and it is made possible because of the Blue Kachina.   This is about  a deep abiding love that has nothing to do with jealousy, anger or control, it is about selflessness, devotion and trust.  This love is about a love for all mankind, about helping them transcend self imposed limitations and about bringing heaven to earth.

I realize now that in and out of time, we will forever be connected to each other but I must respect her freedom and let her go, allow her to choose for herself when she wishes to be of service to this world.  It is not up to me to decide when she will let go of the buried pain holding her back.  All I can ever really do for her, is keep myself in balance and be there for her unconditionally giving her whatever time she needs to find her way back home.

I choose to be of service to this world and all of those in it even if it means temporarily letting go of that which I cherish above all things, the lost piece of my soul that I have searched for and waited for what seems like an eternity.  You see our story begins before what people call time we have supported each other one from above and the other from below.  I mean to say that one descending into a physical body and the other has been the ascending all knowing guide.  We have done this for each other repeatedly for millions of years waiting on the time that would call us to our inevitable physical reunion.

The Blue Star Kachina taught me the most beautiful lesson of all; Unconditional and divine love is composed of freedom and surrender, Faith and Sacrifice it is the balance that can only be found within the balanced polarity of our twin soul.  What is seemingly opposite of each other is really one and the same thing for where one ends the other begins.

When I think of what I am letting go of I can only think of this quote  "Sacrifice demands the surrender of things we cherish above all else.  Only out of the agony of these losses can a new resolution be born, an undying devotion to a cause greater than oneself and the moral duty to see a journey through to its absolute completion." 

So as it seems I will carry on with a piece of her in my soul the way she did so long ago when she incarnated first and forgot her star connections on this earthly plane.   It is my turn to lead men and women to greatness...with my words heart and my soul.... For I am balanced within and will fight to my last breath for the freedom available to us all.    I am the Hidden One, The Red Kachina starseed, Ascended Master, Cosmic Father and FEMALE WARRIOR....

Wednesday, February 13, 2013


I suppose I am sharing this today...because I can relate to this better than anyone.....I know what presumptions can do ....and how much they can hurt.  
It is not my story as I would never doubt a dog... but I sure as hell would doubt another human being.  Of course wouldn't purposely use a dog as a babysitter but I do remember a dog that did exactly that for my own son once. I guess I am ...a byproduct of the way I grew up perhaps....The sad reality is shy of my grandmother and my children the only other never failing ever faithful have been dogs.  hahahaha.......sad but true statement of mine.
So here I am looking at this and knowing exactly what the sin of presumption means and the damage it can cause...

A dog was so faithful that the woman could leave her baby with it and go out to attend other matters. She always returned to find the child soundly asleep with the dog faithfully watching over him. One day something tragic happened.

The woman as usual, left the baby in the "hands" of this faithful dog and went out shopping. When she returned, she
discovered rather a nasty scene, there was a total mess. The baby's cot was dismantled, his nappies and clothes torn to shreds with blood stains all over the bedroom where she left the child and the dog. Shocked, the woman wailed as she began looking for the baby.

All of a sudden, she saw the faithful dog emerging from under the bed. It was covered with blood and licking it's mouth as if it had just finished a delicious meal.

The woman got angry and assumed that the dog had devoured her baby. Without much thought she beat the dog with a wood to death. But as she continued searching for the"remains" of her child, she beheld another scene.

Close to the bed was the baby who, although lying bare floor, was safe 
and under the bed where the body of a snake was torn to pieces in what had been a fierce battle between the snake and the dog which was now dead.  Then reality dawned on the woman who now began to understand what took place in her absence. The dog fought to protect the baby from the ravenous snake.

It was too late for her now to make amends because, in her impatience and anger, she had killed the faithful dog.
How often have we misjudged people and torn them to shreds with harsh words and deeds before we have had time to evaluate the situation? This is called SIN OF PRESUMPTION Presuming things our way without taking the trouble to find out exactly what the situation really is. Little patience can drastically reduce major lifelong mistakes.  
Who Are You misjudging right now? Don't think what you think others are thinking. Take time to get the whole truth.